Taking the Plunge...

Well today I did it, I got baptized. Tomorrow, during Sacrament meeting, I will be confirmed as a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, and will be given the gift of the Holy Ghost. I want to thank first off my parents and all my friends who came and all those who have given me support through my investigating; even if you were not able to come you I truly felt you there in spirit.

I haven't wanted to talk too much about getting baptized on the blog here because well, pardon the idiom but I didn't want to count my chickens before they hatched. Things had not been the most solid these past weeks, and I did not want to get my hopes up, until I was actually sure it was going to happen. I have to say it took me until my head was completely underwater to finally realize it was.

As you may or may not know I have been exploring the Church for a time and have been wanting to get baptized for quite awhile. I have to say it's everything I could, and did, hope for. I was not exactly sure what to expect, and in the days coming up to the baptism I was pretty nervous; I did not really know if I would feel different, or I even worried what if it doesn't take? I was (and still am a bit) worried what if I mess up? What if I don't utilize this gift from God and from Jesus to its fullest? And a big factor contributing to my nervousness: What about my parents?

To answer these questions: I do indeed feel different. I cannot describe the feeling any better than feeling 'reborn'. I feel the Spirit so strongly right now. I still feel as if the water is on my skin, acting as a shield protecting my body from the sins of the world. I know some of this may sound cheesy but I do feel different. I feel cleansed, I feel clean, I feel protected, I feel forgiven... It's hard to describe it to other people. So many people have been congratulating me and asking me, "how do you feel?". I feel dumb because all I kept saying was "Thanks, I feel... great". But my lack of skilled oration and flashy diction to describe the new feelings I was experiencing was not due to any lack of emotions; it was because there are no words to describe it (I think I will try to talk a little more about this topic in a later post). Words are physical, they are of this world, but baptism affects our Spirit; it is larger, stronger, more real, and more intense than anything of this world. Fortunately I think the people who asked me knew this already, as they smiled watching my face as I tried to find the words to describe such a feeling, such an experience.

I'm not positive I won't make mistakes. Well to be honest I know I will, it is inevitable. But I will try to limit my mistakes, and I promise I will not and do not take this lightly. This is a second chance for me, and I am not going to let that go to waste. I will utilize this gift to the fullest.

My Parents. I've had some issues with my parents. They have not been the most supportive in my exploration of the Church. But they did something that took so much strength, more than I feel I could muster. They allowed me to get baptized and they came to the ceremony. They didn't 'give up' or anything like that. They simply explained to me how much they loved me and how they will (and do, I might add) support me in the things I do. They may not always like the things, or think they are right, but they will support me. I know my parents love me, I cannot describe how much I owe my parents, and I cannot begin to describe how thankful I am to my parents, and I can never describe just how much I love my parents and my family. I realize we butt heads at times (especially over this matter), but I know it will get better, and I know this is the first step in that lengthy process.

I realize now the nervousness that I felt up to my baptism was the works of Satan. Many warned me of this happening, Satan trying to tighten his grip, grabbing at loose straws while he still had a chance to catch someone before they came unto the Church, unto the Gospel. I just want to warn any investigators of the Church that as you get more and more into the Church, learn of its truth, and learn to love it Satan will try, frantically, to stop you from learning the truth. The closer you come, the more he will try to stop you. So don't give up or give in; pray to Heavenly Father ask what is true and wait for an answer provided by the Holy Spirit. I testify unto you that if you do hold strong and resist Satan the rewards... are too vast and too amazing to describe.

Thank you to all for your love and support.